It really hurts like fuck. Knowing u r happy w her (even though u said otherwise, in fact I tink I'm secretly happy u all quarrelled).

I really wanted to ask if she's met ur fam. But I was too afraid to know e answer. But e way I found out was really hard for me to swallow. Really felt like I got punched in e face.

Now tt it has reached this pt. I really don't know what to hold on to.