so, back to this, i guess i need an outlet, talking to you sometimes stresses you out and i dont want that.

i cant help but feel disappointed that we need to wait another month for IUI. Am i too anxious? is it bad? i had a thought today - if there is a $ value to having a kid 1 month earlier, what is a $ i would be happy to pay for?

today, talking to you on the phone, just a if scenario.. what if we do IUI end of Feb, it is successful, without knowing for sure, we go ski, and because i fall during skiing, we lose a baby, i will definitely blame myself. i could feel tears coming to my eyes. am i CRAZY?!? you seem super chill though.

I guess the only option of doing IUI in Jan is if we go private, but i am not comfortable with that. I actually like KKH, but why Dr Tan so busy! boo

side note: why are my thoughts in such bad english grammatically

We are getting married. It's really happenibg! Im so excited that i cant sleep, even though I've been tossing in bed for more than 3 hrs.

My god. Cant believe this is happening! Been through ups n downs in our relationship, and here we are today.

My heart is just bursting with joy. My wish us that we will stay happy together always.

I was sick but stayed up waiting for ur call. But u? U were playing w ur new gadget

Crazy day today. U said yes. I'm buying a hse. And I'm going on work trip!

I don't know y I feel so calm. Did I tink u'll def come for me? U ended things w her? Y do I not feel super happy? Did I know it would happen? Y so chill ah Chen ( other than e fact I keep checking my phone & mail )

Do I wana know what happen?

6mths..

I feel u drifting away..