Dont know why but I'm trying to starve myself. Barely ate today. Now i finally understand y some pple can lose e will to live. I mean, I've always considered myself as a positive person n yet thoughts of starving myself, cutting myself did cross my mind. But I won't go there. Don't worry.

Feel like a fool keep staring at my whatsapp waiting for u to come online. Resisting from msging you. I saw tt last nite 218am u were still online. Wanted to ask y u still haven slept yet. Whenever u're online I can't help but imagine u whatsapping other gals. I really hate it but can't help myself.

I saw u added her as fren. I can't explain but I felt sad.

Today I thought whether I'll b better off if we just broke up.

I can't stand not knowing what u r doing. Whether u have woken up/ fallen alsp. Whether u r eating your meals.

I'm afraid even if u somehow miraculously find some feelings for me but I feel so jaded tt I can no longer trust u. I really dont know how long of this I can take.