st james

went to st james last nite and felt really sad for 2 reasons:

1) Just cant seem to have fun w/o thinking abt u
u were obviously having fun coz u only reached home 3 plus. must have been out drinking with v-gal.

2) For the first time in a long time, i actually see how e guys and gals at such places interact
again i cant help but to imagine u hugging/kissing some gal. being tipsy watever. i feel somewhat dissapointed. this is wat u wan? this is wat u r giving me up for? it hurts. i can nv be like these gals. i nv will. it's not tt i look down on such people or whatever. to me, when i go clubbing it is really just to drink, get high with some friends and enjoy e music and dance. somehow, places lk st james gives me e feeling pple have other agendas. agendas which i do not agree with/like.