My heart aches.. Do u know?

Who knows? I'm so used to hiding all my feelings.

I feel miserable staying together but not being able to trust u like I used to. Where is my reliable n always there for me bf? Where is he? I miss e feeling where I can trust u whole heatedly. Can I ever find it back? Y can't u see tt I need u to want this as much as me. But I really can't see it. U use to reassure me all e time. Now all u say is this is how u lead ur life and tt I'm asking too much of u.

U hurt me w ur words today. U said I was unbelievable for even restricting what friends u hang out w. do u ever think who gives me e impression? I'm v ok w u hanging out w e guys. W zen. How can u expect me to just see u always hanging out w e same few 'colleagues' where u behave so inappropriately n send those msges. How?

I don't want to dwell on e past. I actually don't feel so upset when I think of tt anymore. But Wat I'm afraid is e trust I use to have in u (which led to tt incident) can nv b rebuilt again.

M I wrong to want u to change? Mayb I'm really asking for e impossible. E way I see it, unless u change, I w not b happy. If u change (big if), u won't b happy. I just don't see any happy ending here.

I know u love ur job becoz of ur colleagues. But I really hate it. It is when things started to change. Tell me I'm wrong. I really wish u can convince me I'm wrong. But afraid u won't even want to try now.