I won't MSG him today. Unless he initiates it. I can do it. I can do it. I can do it! I must do it!

I dreamt of u. We were attending bay and Jeremy's wedding. U were trying to suck e tar from e fish grills w someting (ie doing someting Stupid)

I wish I can hug u rt now

When w I feel back to normal again??? Pls just let me recover! My heart feels painful. I don't want to think abt him anymore.

I think u r jio-ing her. And u r going to succeed. (on assumption it has not) I mean. Who can resist ur charm. Plus I can tell she is interested. She is not going to b as stupid as me to let u go.

Y did I let u go? Y??

Wat a curse to not b able to slp in!

I drove to ur hse. Walked arnd a lil while. Y don't u love me anymore. I miss u. I miss us.

True story.

What I did to Galvin with u. U r doing it back to me with her. What can I say? U reap what u deserve.

Food is tasteless

Stop fantasising!!! It's NEVER goin to happen!

Y u can move on n lead ur life normally and I have to feel lk my heart has been carved out and smashed against e wall.

Y do I still fantasise abt u wanting me back knowing v v v well given our characters it w nv nv nv happen

That thought really pains me. E tot that u have / will find someone. E tot tt u w v probably marry e gal in ur nxt serious r/s and e person is not me. Y is e person not me? Y? Y not me? M I not gd enough? Y don't u love me anymore?

Hai.. Y m I so bothered!!! I can't get it out of my mind!

Now I know in books when they write knot in stomach, knot in throat. Those tings r real!

Were u all seeing each other even before breaking up w me? Did it only appear really clear to u what u had to do because of her?

I thought I can skip e 'anger' phase of my grieving but u r not making it easy. All the msges and photos in my bro's iPhone.

I still can't handle telling pple we broke up w/o breaking down

I know u would move on much faster than me. Or maybe it alr started even before. Or maybe this is e reason?

I really hope u can b happy from e bottom of my heart. But give me some time to b strong again w/o u ( though I admit even I'm not sure how long tt's going to Tk so u were right not to wait)

I don't want to b a jealous crazy ex gf. Pls help me.

I don't know how to b happy w/o u

Y does it hurt so bad? Y do I still love u so much despite everything u hv done. Y m I so stupid? Y do I still love u. It hurts :(

U've been my everything for as long as I can rem. now I just hav a void in my life.

U cried..

I said I'll marry u if u do.. Not break up w u..

To be frank. U gave me some kind of confidence tt everything w b alrt. But w it? I really want to believe. But at e same time, I tell myself I need to protect myself.

I really don't know...

Y.. Y do u hurt me so much? I don't want to cry anymore :(

Flying back tml. Feeling ... I don't know what is going to happen. Based on how I've been treating me these days. I would say this is gdbye. Y don't u Iove me anymore? U used to say we have all the time in e word. What happened to the us then?

U said u'll b there for me. Where we're u? I don't even dare to ask u. Is this what we have become?

My heart aches.. Do u know?

Who knows? I'm so used to hiding all my feelings.

I feel miserable staying together but not being able to trust u like I used to. Where is my reliable n always there for me bf? Where is he? I miss e feeling where I can trust u whole heatedly. Can I ever find it back? Y can't u see tt I need u to want this as much as me. But I really can't see it. U use to reassure me all e time. Now all u say is this is how u lead ur life and tt I'm asking too much of u.

U hurt me w ur words today. U said I was unbelievable for even restricting what friends u hang out w. do u ever think who gives me e impression? I'm v ok w u hanging out w e guys. W zen. How can u expect me to just see u always hanging out w e same few 'colleagues' where u behave so inappropriately n send those msges. How?

I don't want to dwell on e past. I actually don't feel so upset when I think of tt anymore. But Wat I'm afraid is e trust I use to have in u (which led to tt incident) can nv b rebuilt again.

M I wrong to want u to change? Mayb I'm really asking for e impossible. E way I see it, unless u change, I w not b happy. If u change (big if), u won't b happy. I just don't see any happy ending here.

I know u love ur job becoz of ur colleagues. But I really hate it. It is when things started to change. Tell me I'm wrong. I really wish u can convince me I'm wrong. But afraid u won't even want to try now.

I m unhappy

U went drinking again last nite. Asked u w who u just conveniently ignore me.

U refuse to DL find my friend but u r not doing urself any favours when it comes to convincing me to trust u. Wat do u want me to do.